A Door within a Door..

How our dreams are so big..

How the memories are carved deep inside our souls,

And How life is so occupying, how life is so sweet yet fragile,

How Allah has gifted us such gifts and talents yet we misuse or waste more than we benefit from, How He keeps forgiving yet we keep sinning, yet we keep regretting, how and how and how..! Those thoughts used to keep revolving around the old me, wandering why and how, knocking at many doors seeking answers, until it all came true, answers came from the very first door I kept knocking at since long ago but I stopped knocking back then.. And I am sure! many people have been there at the sill of that door and done so.. Stopped knocking too..

I believe I am not at the rank to give advice or even near to that currently, I am just sharing some experience supported with some facts and btw that door was Allah's door..

Because our souls are nothing but a blow from his soul -Great and glorious is he- and the interesting thing! is that once any one knocks at that door -truly from his/her heart- it is opened for him/her instantly but the weird thing! that one does Then, Is that once we enter we stop knocking! Or the knocking fades -this is so logical by our limited measures in this life- But only Allah knows Why and How long we may be dwelling in front of his door -these "why" and "how long" stuff can be discussed in books and these books already exist- Actually The Biggest action we miss is that we shall keep knocking until a door inside the first door appears, yes! another door should appear after we have entered through the first one "Allah's door", but this second door is a lot different than the first one! This door is tightly locked -we can say it’s more like a type D watertight door which is used to describe a door that separate between two vulnerable compartments if in case they got connected by Uncontrolled means, the safety of the ship, the crew and life -generally- shall be exposed to fatal risks- On the contrary to the first door which I think is almost opened somehow for most of us -for example as if you were born for a Muslim parents - This -newly- discovered door which I believe is the last door between us and our truly aspired inner peace, achievements and leading a happy life in this world, is not easy to open at all -even more- it never gets opened widely and that’s a fact!, it can only get opened leaving a tiny little bit for you to sneak a look! And if you wanted to enter you will have to keep shrinking your body while expanding your mind. Plus, you will have to keep pushing! Because there will be a resistance -in some cases the resisting forces are so strong and one have to do more effort- this pushing is just a metaphor for having a strong will to open the door- and more over, you got to have perseverance and take care of how much time you take rest, cause while you are resting.. the resisting forces tend to close the door again! It's not easy at all this attempt to enter -least thing to be said about it is that it’s hard-, But once you are in! You will find what you have been always searching for, and more over you will find your way.. :")

Sorry! I guess I forgot to mention the name of that -last- door or may be I did that on purpose.. to shift the speech to the nature of that door but anyway that door is the door of Science.. And only there! you will find Allah in his majesty, didn't He -Great & glorious is he- tells us in his ultimate book -Holy Quran- and as for the very first -not chapter! not even verse!!- but WORD, "Read…" -Surat Al 'Alaq verse No. 1 word No. 1- that was the first word Allah had told humanity in a long period of time after He -Great & glorious is he- sent the holy books -Torah & Gospel-.

So.., Read !, learn, educate your self and seek wisdom and find role models, do it your own way as long as you feel deep in your heart that you commit no sin by that, and believe that all the paths shall cross at some point if they all believed in the same -and the only- truth, all the doors lead to the same -and only- truth, everything leads to our creator -Great & glorious is he- and there.. we will find our peace..

I Believe the major difference between those who were born to a Muslim parents and their brothers and sisters who were born to non Muslim ones that the first keep dwelling a lot at the first door thinking - intentionally or unintentionally - it’s a Magical door! and they barely think about the need to seek the second door, thinking of it as an extra knowledge or something that is of no importance, having no impact in their lives and more importantly in their next life affecting their beliefs too.. The poor people forget -or even don't know- That Seeking the second door is a Must according to their own beliefs! -as mentioned before in surat Al 'Aalaq- and that's something -I find- so deplorable.. 

On the other hand, Muslims who were born to non Muslim parents didn't have the luxury of the availability of the first door, and so they had to find their own way through the second door "the door of science" powered with a strong will to seek the truth, educate themselves and of course Allah's guidance was there, they made it through the second door "the harder one" to the first door "the easier one" and I believe that makes their Faith much more stronger and consequently their life much more better in many aspects.

It's a blessing it self being born to a Muslim parents but if you haven't given a try to knock at the door of science then you are wasting your bless and disobeying a direct order to read! But Allah knows and He -Great & glorious is he- "Allah does not burden any soul beyond its capacity. To its credit is what it earns, and against it is what it commits. “Our Lord, do not condemn us if we forget or make a mistake. Our Lord, do not burden us as You have burdened those before us. Our Lord, do not burden us with more than we have strength to bear; and pardon us, and forgive us, and have mercy on us. You are our Lord and Master, so help us against the disbelieving people.” " -Surat Al Baqara verse No. 286- He knows everything since he is the creator, some people knock at the door of science with their fingers, some use their full hand some use both hands and some gets a truck and push the door, A great feature of that door is that it never breaks, never collapses under any circumstances it keeps its integrity, tightness and interacts back with your knocking force relative to it, it is simple and complex at the same time, if you got serious -like those truck guys who want to get through the door at any cost- it gets serious too and at the end Allah says " … and you(means you people) were only given little knowledge" -Surat Al Isra' verse No. 85-.

I never mentioned what kind of science one shall seek because I see it very obvious that it shall be both kinds of Science: the kind related to religion and the kind related to life, evolution.. etc. and the two kinds are mentioned Inclusively in "Surat Al 'Alaq", So I Believe one should revise "Surat Al 'Alaq" and study it, to see how Comprehensive Islam is through this very first -& short- Sura "chapter" in the holy Quran and then follow Allah's command (to read).